智慧人生篇章 第32期:入室行竊的心理創(chuàng)傷

　　A burglary is often described as being a violation.And it's a good word for it because it's not just aboutwhat is physically taken, it's about what isemotionally done to the person being robbed. I hadsuffered no physical assault, but when I sat down todescribe what I could to the police over a strong cupof tea, I felt as though I'd been beaten up.The upsetwasn't to do with the things that had been stolen -most of that is replaceable and insured, it wasn'tthe ransacking of personal property, or the time-consuming pain of having to fill out claim forms. Itwas more the unsettling questions that the burglary had stirred up: What if they'd beenarmed? What if they come back? Why did this happen?There was a fear that lingered long afterthe thieves have fled. Even when writing this on the laptop that wasn't stolen I was moreconscious of noises coming from the street, suspicious of a person walking a little too slowlyup my road. I even bolted the door. I can get all the super-duper alarm systems I like, but willthey take away my fear? I'm angry at those thieves for taking my things but I'll be moreannoyed if they rob me of my peace.

　　入室行竊經(jīng)常被形容為一種暴行，這個(gè)詞用的很準(zhǔn)確，因?yàn)檫@不僅僅意味著物質(zhì)損失，還包含了被竊者精神上的創(chuàng)傷。我身體沒(méi)受傷害，但是，當(dāng)我喝著濃茶，盡我所能向警察描述事件經(jīng)過(guò)時(shí)，我覺(jué)得自己仿佛被胖揍了一頓。這種不安跟跟掠奪無(wú)關(guān)，跟被偷掉多少東西無(wú)關(guān)，這些東西都有替代品，也都上了保險(xiǎn)，在這里花時(shí)間填單子報(bào)案也沒(méi)關(guān)系。重要的是這次行竊引起的不安揣測(cè)：萬(wàn)一他們有武器會(huì)怎樣?萬(wàn)一他們又回頭了怎么辦?為什么會(huì)發(fā)生這種事?竊賊走后很長(zhǎng)一段時(shí)間內(nèi)，我都有種恐懼感。即便是在這臺(tái)沒(méi)被偷走的筆記本上寫(xiě)這篇文章的時(shí)候，我對(duì)外面大街上傳來(lái)的任何響動(dòng)都如履薄冰，跟我一條路的人走得稍微慢點(diǎn)，我就會(huì)對(duì)他疑神疑鬼，我還栓上了大門(mén)。我可以把所有高級(jí)報(bào)警系統(tǒng)裝個(gè)遍，但這就能消除我的恐懼感了?我是恨那些竊賊偷了我的東西，但我更恨他們搶走了我內(nèi)心的平靜。